I’m sure it’s fairly obvious by my lack of updates, but I’m not really doing anything towards my weight loss right now. But my mom “gently reminded” me that I hadn’t posted here for 2 weeks, so I thought I’d at least pop in to say “Nope, still not doing things right.”
I haven’t written it off entirely, but I haven’t gotten started again yet either. Knowing that there are a lot of holiday meals over the next month makes it hard to want to really work it out… I’ll get back there, but it’s not happening right now. And I hate having to come here and say that.

When you go to Vegas, you will end up walking, walking, and walking. Then you’ll walk some more, and oh by the way, have I mentioned walking? My feet are screaming, but I’m thinking that if you actually leave the casinos at all, it has to be about impossible to gain weight in Vegas. I’ve probably done more walking in the last 3 days than I have in the past three months. I don’t know how much I’m going to be able to do when I get home though because let me tell you, my feet are KILLING me. And we still have a party tonight with not so good shoes!

Eat chips and salsa for breakfast.

Oops.

Here we are, one day past Halloween, probably surrounded by temptation… in the form of fun-size Snickers, Reeses’ Pieces, and Butterfingers. All in all, I bought a TON of candy, both to hand out to trick-or-treaters and to give out at work. I sent the remainder of last night’s candy with my mother, who will be taking it to work. That still leaves a huge grocery bag full of candy at my desk. I’ve been foisting it off on unsuspecting coworkers all day, but it will likely last into next week. Unfortunately, the willpower didn’t last nearly that long, and I have to admit, I’ve been grazing this afternoon.

How about you? What are you doing to avoid temptation?? Or are you currently sneaking an empty Baby Ruth wrapper into the garbage can?

I think it’s fairly obvious when I’ve been remiss in posting over here, it’s probably because I’m not doing what I should be doing. I haven’t been doing too horribly as far as eating is concerned, but I still manage to find ways to sabotage that with cookies, or Burger King for dinner, or Halloween candy while sitting at my desk at work.
And workouts? Ha! I haven’t done one since Thursday night… I started Friday’s workout, but shut it off because my friend arrived, and I wanted to talk to her rather than have her watch me workout for another 20 minutes. The days between now and then?? Some of the skipped workouts were for legitimate reasons and others weren’t. I’m not sure what’s holding me back at this point. I’ll be leaving for Vegas a week from today, and I keep thinking “well, I won’t be on plan that whole week anyways… maybe I just better start again when I get back.” I think I just figured out what’s “holding me back.”
I won’t be working out today either– no time, being Halloween, and no motivation either, to be honest. Tomorrow, we’ll just have to see. In any case, I’ve got the coming back from Vegas and getting on track in my mind…

I don’t know if anyone can relate to this or not, but my favorite part of the workout DVDs is the point where we get to the on-the-floor exercises. I’m still working just as hard, but it feels a little more like resting, take the pressure off my back, etc. Inevitably there is a point where this is only one thought going through my head. Any idea what that might be??

It is, of course, “I need to vacuum my carpet!”

At some point, we’ll be face down, for some stretch or something of the like, and all I can focus on is how dirty, and cat hair-y my carpet is. So yesterday I got the bright idea– I vacuumed immediately BEFORE my workout instead of right AFTER it. Of course, I did a full Cardio Overdrive DVD for the first time, and wouldn’t you know it? No on the floor exercises or stretches. Figures.

I’m finding, more and more, that my biggest hurdle is just getting started. If I’m not feeling like doing my workout, for whatever reason, I find that if I just go ahead and get started anyways, 90% of the time, I’m fine. I complete the workout, and feel better for having done so. If I don’t complete the workout then I gave in to the desire to be lazy, and I feel guilty for skipping out on my commitment to myself.
As you may have guessed, yes, I did finally start my workout last night, and yes, it was fine. I certainly felt better about myself than I did the night before when I DID choose to skip the workout. I’m definitely planning on doing tonight’s workout, though it’s easy to be motivated to do it when I’m still chained to my desk at work. Maybe I need be better about starting the workout shortly after I get home… procrastination seems to be my downfall. The longer I put it off, the more time I have to make excuses about NOT doing it.
Makes me think of the Nike magazine ads that were out for awhile - “If you went running when you first thought about it, you’d be back by now.”

Man… it’s Wednesday night already, and that means I’m one day behind on my workouts. Aka, I skipped yesterday’s. I have been feeling a bit under the weather lately… so not completely sick, but not great either. I don’t want to do anything other than lay on the couch, but that’s not doing anything for me! I think it may be the changing weather/allergies. Who knows, really.
I’m currently trying to get the motivation to do a workout tonight… a half an hour. I can do that, right? Right…
Still considering changing my workouts to the mornings… I just haven’t made the switch yet. I already get up so early, and every time I’ve almost made the decision to get up earlier, I think about just how hard it is to get up already, and how early I go to bed already. The thought of moving that up 45-50 more minutes to get a workout in? That’s just painful… So I’m trying to decide whether I’d be more likely to press snooze and skip the workouts in the morning than I already am to skip the workouts in the evenings. I don’t know.

I stepped on the scale this morning and saw the number 234, and I’m ecstatic about it. For those of you who haven’t been paying attention, I weighed in two weeks ago at 235. So why am I so happy about a one pound weight loss in two weeks?
Well, last week I was looking at a weight gain, and a complete lack of focus. I missed my exercises on Saturday due to time and lack of sleep, Sunday I didn’t feel well, Monday my shoulder was killing me… want excuses? I’ve got them. But when it comes down to it, it’s a slippery slope. The first missed workout makes the second one easier to miss. The second one makes it easier to skip the third, and eventually it’s a huge hurdle to just get started again.
So I had a week. I didn’t work out, I didn’t make any particular effort to watch my diet. On one hand, it wasn’t good for me, and on the other hand, I think I really needed it. I did start my workouts again last night, and I’ll be doing today’s workout shortly after pressing publish on this post (once my movie’s over, of course). I think I still need to hammer out for myself exactly what I’m doing and why I’m doing it, but I’m moving forward now.

So to sum up:

Beginning weight: 239
Current weight: 234
Total weight lost: -5

I’m also due to update my measurements, but I haven’t done that yet.

It’s becoming more and more apparent to me that my head is not in the right place for this right now. I don’t know what I need to change, but something has to. Even when I’m keeping on top of my workouts, I’m finding myself sabotaging my progress in other ways.
Now I’ve missed several workouts for various reasons, and that’s just a slippery slope. It’s too easy to keep making excuses. My shoulder hurts, I have to go to bed early, I don’t have time, I’m too tired. Or just plain “I don’t want to.”

Yeah, so that’s where I’m at. I’ll basically be starting over in a week or so, but this week, it’s just not happening. It’s so ironic because I’ve been leaving comments for other people about not having motivation, but doing it anyways, and powering through. Ha. Easier said than done, huh?? Sometimes I wonder if I’m not just afraid of change. I don’t know how to be thin.