Beginning Weight: 244
Week Beginning: 234
Current Weight: 232.5
Week’s Loss: -1.5
Total: -11.5 lbs

I forgot to post yesterday! I was busy with other things while I was at work, and then I was gone most of the evening. In any case, I got on the scale yesterday morning to see 232.5. (Got off the scale, and back on just to be sure lol) So that’s a loss of another pound and a half. I’m not celebrating yet because I’m sure I undid that progress last night. Remember when I said I was gone most of the evening? I was at Texas Roadhouse celebrating my dad’s wife’s birthday… and boy did I eat my share of food! You just can’t resist those beautiful rolls with cinnamon butter. They ordered a Cactus Blossom too, and I picked at that. I don’t even LIKE onions, but deep fry them and give me fattening sauce to dip them in and apparently that’s all it takes!
On the positive side, I managed to complete three (and a half) workouts last week, while not the five that I had hoped to do, is better than the ZERO I’d been doing in previous weeks! So far, the workout count for this week is still at 0, but there’s time to change that.

Beginning Weight: 244
Week Beginning: 235.5
Current Weight: 234
Week’s Loss: -1.5
Total: -10 lbs

Shockingly enough, today marks 10 pounds lost so far! Apparently I did just enough this week to keep making forward progress. Don’t ask me how… I didn’t keep track more than I did, and Friday night was just scary. Sarah and I got pizza, and ate way too much. I paid for that one for awhile!
But it was kind of amusing. Saturday was the bridal expo, and Sarah is getting married so I tagged along with her. They had all kinds of samples of wedding cake, and meatballs, and the like, and I was just getting annoyed that they all had these gorgeous displays of fresh fruit with Do Not Eat signs on them. Cake available, and I wanted the pineapple! lol (Though they had some chocolate mousse cheescake in chocolate cups and they were divine. I told Sarah to just stack those in tiers and call it a wedding cake!)
I’m hoping to do much better this week. I did a workout yesterday morning while waiting on my laundry, and I hope to do one tonight and keep that momentum going. I also headed out last night to get some groceries so I could take my lunch, and hopefully even cook a few things. I’ve got a cooking light cookbook here with me now, so I’m going to go through that and see if I can find some recipes to try.
How did you do this week?

Beginning Weight: 244
Week Beginning: 236.5
Current Weight: 235.5
Week’s Loss: -1
Total: -8.5

I’m trying to tell myself that 1 lb a week (or 1.5) is a nice healthy weightloss.. but I can’t help but feel that I’m going to scratch out this weight loss with my fingernails. Don’t know if that makes sense to anyone but me! BUT I know that there are things I could be doing to help that along a little better that I’m NOT doing, so I’m not going to get discouraged. My goal for this week is to be stricter with writing down everything I’m eating. I’ve been keeping track in my head, but it’s easier to justify 2 points for chocolate when you aren’t looking at it in black and white.

I have to confess that this week has probably been more bad than good. I stuck to my plan on Wednesday, Thursday and most of Friday afternoon… and then I started getting into the chocolate drawer. Then I decided that it was nasty outside and didn’t want to mess with getting decent food, so I ordered pizza (a small pizza and breadsticks) from Papa Johns. That wouldn’t have been too bad except I ate until I was STUFFED instead of just satisfied. And then I ate more chocolate.
Saturday’s food was PopTarts, the rest of the pizza and a few more breadsticks, chocolate, and Tuna Helper. Ouch. Sunday wasn’t too bad. I had mini-muffins for breakfast, and I made White Chicken Parmesan for lunch with salads. I never got hungry enough for another meal before bed, so I just picked at some pretzel sticks.
I honestly think the only thing that saved me this week is that I cleaned my apartment. And I mean CLEANED. Scrubbed the kitchen and the bathroom, and purged a ton of stuff from the living room. So I was up on my feet more than I usually am on the weekends. And then I was up and down the stairs a million times between taking down the trash and recycling, and bring up the groceries.
The moment of truth was this morning… I got up and before I hopped in the shower, I stepped on the scale. And then I stepped off, and back on. And then I stepped off and back on again. All 3 times, it said the same thing… 236.5, a loss of 2 pounds from last Tuesday, which doesn’t seem remotely possible given my lousy eating. But it was a good reminder that the days I *did* eat better were worth it, as well as all the small movements that add up. Even small changes, such as eating healthy lunches at work instead of greasy hamburgers and french fries from the grill, can mean forward progress. It’s something I need to keep in mind, knowing there will be more chocolate days at some point in my future. I’d rather lose weight painstakingly slowly than not lose weight at all.

Starting Weight: 244
Week Starting Weight: 238.5
Current Weight: 236.5
This Week’s Progress: -2 lbs
Total Weight Loss: -7.5 lbs.

Well, today officially marks one week doing the Weight Watchers thing. I had a pretty good week, actually. Adjusting to not grazing on food all the time was a challenge, and I feel like I spent way too much time thinking about food– what I had eaten, what I wasn’t going to eat, what points were in all my options, doesn’t a cheeseburger sound good, if I eat a lean cuisine for dinner how many Hershey Kisses can I eat? You get the point. All in all though, I stayed on the plan. I even managed to go out to lunch at my favorite restaurant with my mom on Saturday without going over my points. I used some of the weekly flex points, but I still ended the week with some of those left over.
The goal for this week is to continue more of the same… I’m hoarding my weekly flex points for Saturday because it’s the first of my holiday meals with family, and it’s a meal that I requested before I started WW, and I plan to enjoy it. I also want to get some exercise in this week (besides cleaning the snow off my car, that is!). I did a short workout yesterday, and am feeling that already today. My friend Sarah and I are going to go to the library tomorrow night to go through some cookbooks looking for healthy recipes.

And now for what you’ve all been waiting for… the results! This is the point where I confess that I don’t have an official week starting weight. Oops. I do know that I had been fluctuating between 235 and 240. Mostly in the 238-240 area. I weighed in this morning at 233. So I lost at least 2 lbs. and maybe even a little bit more than that. This puts me one pound below where I was at when I began my month-plus long break, so I’ll definitely take it!

Starting Weight: 239 lbs.
Current Weight: 233 lbs.
Total Weight Loss: -6 lbs.

I stepped on the scale this morning and saw the number 234, and I’m ecstatic about it. For those of you who haven’t been paying attention, I weighed in two weeks ago at 235. So why am I so happy about a one pound weight loss in two weeks?
Well, last week I was looking at a weight gain, and a complete lack of focus. I missed my exercises on Saturday due to time and lack of sleep, Sunday I didn’t feel well, Monday my shoulder was killing me… want excuses? I’ve got them. But when it comes down to it, it’s a slippery slope. The first missed workout makes the second one easier to miss. The second one makes it easier to skip the third, and eventually it’s a huge hurdle to just get started again.
So I had a week. I didn’t work out, I didn’t make any particular effort to watch my diet. On one hand, it wasn’t good for me, and on the other hand, I think I really needed it. I did start my workouts again last night, and I’ll be doing today’s workout shortly after pressing publish on this post (once my movie’s over, of course). I think I still need to hammer out for myself exactly what I’m doing and why I’m doing it, but I’m moving forward now.

So to sum up:

Beginning weight: 239
Current weight: 234
Total weight lost: -5

I’m also due to update my measurements, but I haven’t done that yet.

It’s becoming more and more apparent to me that my head is not in the right place for this right now. I don’t know what I need to change, but something has to. Even when I’m keeping on top of my workouts, I’m finding myself sabotaging my progress in other ways.
Now I’ve missed several workouts for various reasons, and that’s just a slippery slope. It’s too easy to keep making excuses. My shoulder hurts, I have to go to bed early, I don’t have time, I’m too tired. Or just plain “I don’t want to.”

Yeah, so that’s where I’m at. I’ll basically be starting over in a week or so, but this week, it’s just not happening. It’s so ironic because I’ve been leaving comments for other people about not having motivation, but doing it anyways, and powering through. Ha. Easier said than done, huh?? Sometimes I wonder if I’m not just afraid of change. I don’t know how to be thin.

So today was the day of truth… I stepped on the scale this morning, and held my breath. My weight is the same as last week. I know that sounds like something I should be disappointed about, but I’m not. I skipped a workout, and ate like PIG all week long. SO maintaining last week’s 4 pound loss is a big deal to me.

Also, since it has now been two weeks since beginning The Firm program (even though I’ve done 12 workouts and not 14), I updated my measurements. So since starting the program two weeks ago, I’ve lost a total of 4 pounds, and 6 inches over all. Not bad for two weeks!!

Hi-Def Sculpt today!

Well, this morning is officially one week from the beginning of the Firm program. I wasn’t planning on weighing myself for another whole week, but I decided to jump on the scale this morning anyways. I lost 4 pounds! That is exactly the motivation I needed to keep going this week!
I was feeling a little bummed with myself before that because I seriously made some bad eating decisions this week, and I crapped out on my last workout. The ones earlier in the week that I pooped out on was because I was too tired or couldn’t keep up, but on Friday night, I got halfway through and just shut it off. I didn’t like myself for doing that, but I’m not beating myself up over it. My head was just not in a good place on Friday night because I had just found out that one of my cousin’s has a very large tumor, and she’s very young. I at least attempted to stick with the program, and that’s what’s important. In the end, I chose to shut it off, go for a drive and attend to my mental health over the physical.

But it’s a brand new week! Hi-Def Sculpt today.

This is the point where I take very deep breaths. I took the traditional “before” pictures so that both you and I could see exactly where I’m starting from. It’s been a bit of a slap in the face because while I know I’m overweight, part of me didn’t believe it was that bad. I’m very tempted to keep these pictures to myself, but that hasn’t served me well in the past, so it’s time to change that.

Deep breaths… here at the before pictures.

Front:

Back:

Side:

And the proof of my weight:

Ignoring the dirty scale, and scary toenails, the number is 239. Two Hundred and Thirty Nine Pounds. Oh my god. That’s the highest it has ever been, EVER. I never thought I would see that number on the scale. Obviously, something has to change.

And just in case you are wondering, those pictures were taken on September 22, 2007. You can tell they weren’t taken before that because I just got my hair cut short on the 20th!