I’m hesitant to write here at all, honestly. It’s been almost a year since I wrote last, and I’ve done little to address my weight in the meantime. A few false starts, sure, but nothing that’s lasted. I’m feeling like something needs to change, even though I don’t have a plan yet. There were a few pictures taken of me over Christmas that I found horrifying. I mean, I know I’m overweight, but seeing pictures of myself just make me think “Oh my god, I’m huge.”

The damage isn’t as bad as I thought it was… my starting weight previously is listed as 244. My current weight? 244. Not where I would have hoped to be a year later, but it could be worse. Like I mentioned before, I don’t have a plan right now. I haven’t made any resolutions. I can’t promise that I’ll post here again between now and January of 2010. But I do feel like something’s gotta give.

I’ve had a couple of goals on a 101 Things in 1001 days list that relate to weightloss/fitness, so hopefully something will happen there soon. Those goals, without looking at the list, off the top of my head are to lose 50 lbs, completely couch to 5k, and run in the 5k at Sunburst. The Sunburst races are June 6th this year, and I’m not thinking it’s going to happen this year unless I manage to come up with a treadmill. My finances are a bit (ha) pinched right now so I certainly can’t afford to buy one.

So basically, I guess this is a post to tell you that I’m in the same place I was a year ago, and I have no idea if or how that is going to change this year.