Not in the Right Place
It’s becoming more and more apparent to me that my head is not in the right place for this right now. I don’t know what I need to change, but something has to. Even when I’m keeping on top of my workouts, I’m finding myself sabotaging my progress in other ways.
Now I’ve missed several workouts for various reasons, and that’s just a slippery slope. It’s too easy to keep making excuses. My shoulder hurts, I have to go to bed early, I don’t have time, I’m too tired. Or just plain “I don’t want to.”
Yeah, so that’s where I’m at. I’ll basically be starting over in a week or so, but this week, it’s just not happening. It’s so ironic because I’ve been leaving comments for other people about not having motivation, but doing it anyways, and powering through. Ha. Easier said than done, huh?? Sometimes I wonder if I’m not just afraid of change. I don’t know how to be thin.
It’s a slippery slope. Before you know it you’ll be saying “I’ll start again for News Years”, etc. You wrote about it, that’s a big step ahead of most people. Find a way to do something this week so you can feel good about yourself.
Maybe you need to ask your self why you want to lose weight in the first place. Set yourself some little goals first to help you reach your big goals(oh dear did I already say this in another comment?)
If you break one egg in a carton, do you throw the whole dozen on the floor? No you wouldn’t do that! Tomorrow is a new day!
Anyway have a good motivational quote for you - Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.” Carl Bard
Just keep at it eventually you’ll find what works for you and stick with it. After 77 weeks on my own getting healthy journey I still find times when I have really push myself to stick with it. What helps me is to remember to be gentle with myself and over time changing my old thinking patterns and clearing out the emotional baggage too — like the old mental tapes that say things like “what’s the point I’m fat so just give up”, “you’re going to fail any way so just give up” — recognizing these as just old programming and taking the time to learn new more positive mental images has helped me a lot.
I read a book called “Shrink Yourself” and also Dr. Beck’s Diet Solutions address the emotional and thinking aspects of weight loss.
Hang in there, Jenn. Keep on, keeping on. Find what works for you and you’ll hit a groove. The hardest time for me is the first 2-3 weeks when my body is adjusting to the change in diet. I mentally want to quit over and over, but know that it will get easier. {{{{Hugs}}}}